Tell Me What You Want....What You Really Really Want?!

The other day I was posed the question "Why are you not in a relationship?" I fumbled, talked in circles, and totally did not answer the question to the point where i forgot the original question. I did this only to realize I do not exactly know where my stance on relationships is. While i love the idea of a boyfriend... i'm genuinely afraid of one. I weigh the pros and cons to both the single and committed life and I cannot deem one more worthy.
Yet however, I always find myself committed to something that is nonexistent. I guess its crazy a way to cheat the system lol.
Do any of y'all have the same problem?